First Kicks!

So for a few weeks now Beth has been saying that she thinks our little girl might be a soccer player due to all the kicking and I have had to disagree with her due to the fact that I have not been able to feel her kicking quite yet. Over the past few weeks Beth has been saying that the kicks are getting stronger and more frequent and I keep glueing my hands to her belly anticipating something... anything! Each time nothing would happen. Well exciting things happened tonight and for the first time I was able to feel my baby kick!!! It was so amazing! I felt 3 kicks in a row it was so cool. I know it wasn't Beths heartbeat because I was fealing that at the tips of my fingers and the baby kicked more towards my palms. I know not too many of you may find this as facinating as I do but oh well! Anyways just a few short months and she will be here now all we need to do is figure out her name!!!

Updates

So I thought I would update a few things that have happened since Feb.
First thing first we didn't end up getting the house due to some annoying circumstances that were out of our control. We decided to rent for another year rather than go through the whole process again.
For those of you who didn't know Beth got pregnant again in January and we found out last week that we are having a baby girl!!! That is so exciting! We truley are blessed with this miricle. God is so good! We are now just preparing to move apts in July and then in Oct our baby girl will be here. Thats it for now I guess.

Exciting possibilites!

So over Christmas break my family came out to FL to visit me and my wife. We had so much fun with them here letting them see our new home and all. Anyways while they were here my mom mentioned that her and my step-dad wanted to try to help us get a house so we were not pouring our money into rent. So not too sereously we started to look into it. Well in the process we found out that we qualify for 2 state programs here is FL with both we can get $25,000 assistance to buy a house. Which for us would mean paying less (I know it's weird) for a 2 or 3 bed house than we pay for a 1 bed apt. So over the process of looking we have found a house don't know if we will get it but we have mad an offer. Right now we are stepping out and seeing what happens. If we get it that will be awesome but if not we are fine where we are now. Also through praying about wheather to buy or not we have realized that we really would love to be overseas and so if the house doesn't work out we are talking about moving to China earlier than we origionally planned. Our apartment lease is up in July so we would probably move our things into storage and then got through TX and CA to see familyl and friends and then move over to Chins. We have been waiting to move for some time now and have not really been sure when the right time is. Anyways just a few things that have been going on! I will keep ya'll updated when we know more!

Afterthoughts

It has been about a month now since Beth and I found out that we lost our first baby. I still think back to the day we had to go to the ER and wait 8 hours to find out answers to our questions. I don't know if I have ever felt that low in my entire life. I have also never felt more close to my wife or God ever before. I know that every day since that day that God has been there walking us through this painful time. I have never doubted that! He has given me peace and grace to make it through. The best thing is he has used this to strengthen my relationship with my wife. As weird as it may be to some I am so so excited for her to be pregnant again. I can't wait to see what God has next for us. I know some may be like "how can you just move on?" Well I have to. If I don't I will be living life always hurting over something God never inteded me to keep even if the baby had lived and grown up it was never really mine. God just blessed me with a precious gift a very precious gift! I know that if God didn't give me strength I would not have been able to walk with Beth through this. I never though life would get back to normal but here it is we are back into "normal" life but on the other hand a few weeks ago we had the greatest joy in the world. All the excitement and going to baby sections in stores thinking of names and all. I never wanted it to end. I found my life being totally caught up in my unborn baby. I remember the first time I saw the heart beating in an ultrasound. Talk about unbeleivable. I can still see the facial features the hands and the feet. It was the most beautiful thing ever! I can't help but wonder what the baby would end up being a boy or girl. (I don't care as long as the next one is healthy!!!) I do know that the baby is in the BEST place ever. It never has to deal with pain or ever be seperated from God. That is the best thing ever. It has taken many many hours of fighting and crying for me to be where I am now. God is truly amazing and so so so good! I know that he has a greater plan for all of this that I won't fully understand until I see him face to face. Anyways just a few thoughts I wanted to write down . I don't know if it will be helpful to anyone who may read it but I felt I should write some of the things I have been going through.